Niin ei ole minulla tuonelan kaipuu, ei ole pelkoa pedon

One of those fascinating dreams last night... was hiking with my dogs and youngest toward this mountain with a massive waterfall that kept fading in and out of view due to cloud cover. The weather was getting steadily stormier with occasional lightning, we were walking on a beach in mounting fear that the tide would strand us, and it was all just so huge and overwhelming and gorgeous that I woke up with my heart beating in my ears like a bass drum.

All of this mental storm is happening in the middle of the calmest, sunniest week we've had since last August. xD I got some of that nervous energy out in the form of exercise today. I've been at it a month this time and handstands are just starting to feel good again. I can feel the points of balance, instead of throwing my body around like a sack of wheat, hoping the weak muscles and atrophied proprioception will magically put me where I need to be. haha I just need to stick with it this time. Seems more likely to happen, with the cut hours. I hope I hope I hope

Tonight I drive to Seattle to spend the night with Ash before we head into Bellevue to sign refinance paperwork Sunday morning. It'll get our little house a shiny new roof, some windows that don't leak, and a deck that isn't rotting. Gotta take care of her so she's still there for us in our dotage. ;D But yes, money is what has me wound tighter than a spring if that weren't already obvious

how dull.